and here it is folks

i super miss my Angelo

DX

but on the bright side! super fun-tastic time with anthony, jerrick,elliot, kelli, sheri, dustin, evan, scott, linkin, nani, and…i feel like there was someone else….maybe not lolol

yay friends :)

dance niiiighhhttt :D

full days work

hanging out with friends (kelly maeshiro quality time!)

kicking ass at work

chai and a good book on a super comfy chair

and dancing til i can’t dance anymore and being really sweaty and tired but feeling so great because it’s fucking fantastic dancing in the cool night air with your ipod and leggings.

nothing can touch me tonight

absolutely nothing <3

only the second week of summer….and i already feel so high on life :) but then again, isnt’ that my everyday story ;)

Pigment race

Paint party

pizza party

mooooseeetache party ;D

SLIP AND SLIDE PARTY!!!! 

HELLOOOO SUMMER!! you want in??? lemme know friend :D

but today has just been a whole bunch of little confirmations of what needs to be done

talked to my krisbabe today <3 and just being able to really release what i’ve been holding in i realized…that i’m not where i should be..that anger..is also a way of holding on. and i thought i could push push push you out..but as much as i hate and dread the idea of it..i think i may need to talk with you just one last time. not to lash out. not to ask for any answers really. i just don’t want to continue to hate your very existence lol

yuma’s little message to me about how proud she is of me and whatnot just completely broke me down to tears because it’s what i needed at the right time and because it came from a sincere place and because she’s amazing

hanging out with the girls and being able to listen to kina grannis live while she sang to my SOUL. was just a healing experience all on it’s own 

we women go through our own experiences, and a lot of time, hurt is what draws us together. but what i found today just on that table with a couple of girls i had never personally had any real solid connection to, and being able to open up, and more importantly listen to them open and share their intimate stories of struggle and pain made me realize even more that if we don’t fight for ourselves. then we shoudl fight for each other. 

i’ve gone through three phases that i can sum up

living for one being

living for myself

and now i feel like i’m in my third phase which is this

living in appreciation

appreciation for everyone who ever made any small impact to get me to where i am today. that i know that when i succeed and i will because it’s what i work hard for every damn day, it will be because of the grace of God and the people he put by me

i’m happy. so incredibly happy. but more then that, i think i am thankful. my life is not a waste if i can make someone feel they have made a difference in this world. 

i;m gonna make it one day. but there a few loose ties i need to knot first….